weeknights, weekends & extra hours
I know yesterday was the first in a while that i didn’t post. Everything is fine, I’m just totally burnt out and needed to sleep. I got home yesterday from AZ in time to walk out the door trick or treating. I didn’t get to be till late, then I woke up early for a photo gig in NYC…then got home for about 3 minutes before taking Olivia to her best friends birthday party tonight (pictures to come). I’m home now and just got Liv to bed. I’m about to collapse and I’m THRILLED that we get an extra hour tonight!!
But I posted about solitude the other day. I’m remembering how much of that i actually get now. Even being so busy all day, I always get time alone, everyday. It a couple hours each night with no one around. It is not refreshing, encouraging or comfortable in anyway though. I just miss my best friend. I miss having someone to decide things with; I miss having someone who was always there and took no effort to connect with. I miss her laugh and smile. Ah, but I still have it pretty good. And any day of the week, I’d take the good years along with the tough times over not ever having her at all. God is still quote good to me. And that isn’t even considering Olvia…who is more than wonderful. I’m not depressed today, no need to comment on how everything will be alright or anything like that (I know that). I’m just noting that my alone times lately are bipolar. A few great times, but mostly not.
Anyway, I wasn’t going to write anything here…not sure how all this came up. I was just going to tell you that I may not post on weekends as much. We get a few less readers and perhaps it will be good. But who knows…I’m kinda addicted to this thing.
